well i understand.

I know a personwho got addicted to different kind of excercise and the such...diets....and all - because he wants to brove his parents wrong. that he is not lazy and not selfish.

Whats funny is - we are AWARE of it but WTF - we STILL cant see throught it. We dont get RID of it.

My parents are SO nice and jentle to me - especially my mother. but i used to be a moody child, i have an artists soul, and my mom used to be upset because of my behavior especially around her friends. so - as much as e is nice, jentle, gives me tones of cash, tones of nice words (wihc i am soooooo sick of) and so and so - i feel i am never a good enough daughter - since she is crazy about me and all i want is to be away from her. tired of everyhting. and if i see her cry i immidiatly feel to blame and that i cause it because as a child i was told not to upset ad daddy always told me that my nerves upset all the family. and that i feel satisfied only when my behavior cause enough trouble.

yeh - eacho to his own.