Hi again.

Well stupid me decided It might be a good idea to look up my question on the internet!! Low and behold I found an answer!!
So Boardline Personality Disorder accounts for my daily mood swings from calm to sad to hyper to angry to sleepy to withdrawn all in one day, it also explains my suicide attempts and hospitalizations and my refusal to trust or make friends I keep everyone at a healty destance. Except my Hubby of 15 years I still feel like he doesnt love me when hes away from me I get extremely jealous even though he has never given me reason. I do self harm but not to suicidal extents The doctor also said I have phycotic tendencies and I have had what they have called phycotic episodes in which I lose time dont know who anyone id, or where I am or what Im doing and I dont remember anything about it when I come back to reality. I did think so of those symtoms where from PTSD but I guess only the vivid flashbacks and sounds of the past is the PTSD.
Anyway thanks for listening everyone and I still welcome any and all responses.

Sincerely,

Roxy