txs all, i do journal, i find i get very irratable if i(we) don't. i dont care for change either, even if it means staying in the hell i have me in now, as you say, it is what i know. that is one of the problems my T and i are having. i want to change (some of me's dont) he wants (i think) to let the one he calls the bad *** southern, (i am not aware of this one) to come out in herapy. i think its her that is the over all protecter and fighter. make sense?