Berries, I'm so sorry you're feeling you're “bad.” A longtime observation is that truly bad people rarely feel so about themselves, and many whose failings – real or imagined – pale in comparison to those of the truly bad so often berate themselves unmercifully.

Recently, an elderly fellow was deported from the US to Germany “where he is accused of being an accessory in the murder of 29,000 Jews while working as a guard at the Sobibor death camp in eastern Poland.” If guilty, I would then describe him as “bad” and a “damned soul.” In my opinion, “over-medicating” just isn't in the same league...

But, those thoughts are coming out of my head and not from my heart. Sometimes I feel myself the worst of the worst, and those feelings don't respond to reason.

May your times of intense self-condemnation be fleeting. May real, caring souls be there for you, and for all of us.