Yes, it's me again posting about my anxiety.

I swear I'm going nuts or something. I always thought you had a bout of GAD that would last 2-3 days and that was it. This time around, it has more or less been with me constantly. I seldom get a break from it. It's been with me for several months now ever since the bat incident (a bat flew over my head).

I'm not here to talk about bats though. I'm here to find out if it is possable for a person's GAD/Anxiety to be more or less constant. I mean, I feel good when I wake up in the mornings and when I take my walk but once I get moving around, have my coffee, etc it seems to get worse and worse as the day goes on. Is this normal?. Is anyone else's GAD/Anxiety like this?. Could you please describe it for me so I can better understand what OTHER people go through?.

The bat acted as the trigger and even when I try to put it out of my mind or the doctor say's "well, I don't think you have anything to worry about", I'll still be thinking about it (subconsiously) and even when I completely block it out of my mind, the hormones/chemicals of anxiety are still coursing through my system.

I walk around with wobbly/weak legs sometimes, other times I'll get a crawling sensation somewhere or a muscle twitch and it will totally freak me out and I just know that I'm going to die.

I don't like popping pills but yesterday, that went out the window and I took a big slug of NyQuil in the afternoon, followed by 2 Xanax tablets (yes, I'm back on the benzos again) a few hours later and then a vistaril in the evening. For the first time in months, I felt so relaxed and peaceful. I slept like a baby (until noon!) and woke up feeling GREAT. Then the meds wore off and it felt like my whole body was buzzing with low-level electricity/anxiety and the weird sensations in my legs (tingly, crawling, vibrating sensations) and elsewhere returned.

I don't know what to do. Am I going to be like this for the rest of my life?. What are everyone else's symptoms and how long do they last?...a few days...a week?...a month or longer?.

Thank's so much!!