Thank all of you for your replies. I appreciate all the views I have received from everyone.
I guess it all comes down to that feeling of needing to be taken care of. To feel like I am part of this family. To be in touch with my children and know what is going on with them. To have time for me. Is this so bad? I dont think so. I have worked hard my whole life. I have never asked anyone for help because I was never gonna be let down. This goes back to my childhood. I have pondered what I need to do. I know what I want to do. I need more time to think I guess. Thank you all. Each of you are very special to me and I value your input immensly (sp).
Love to all of you.