Thank You all for your replies ..
The lumps are not small .. the one uder my rib is about 3 inches maybe 4
under my arm about 2 or 3 inches .. they could be minor and might just go away .. i probably will not go to a dr for it .. i know i should feel something like fear but i feel nothing .. just dont care ..with my life the way it is going just do not have room in my head to add more junk to deal with. Just do not care and certainly do not have the strength for more good news right now (sarcastically speaking of course)
Cancer is in our family long history .. so wouldnt be surprised if that would be the outcome of testing .. my mom is a survivor of breast cancer .. no one else throughou my family survived just suffered greatly
spent tons of money for a cure ..still did not pull thru.
Greatfully my mother caught it early enough to resolve.
But right now under way too much other junk to deal with - i cant deal with health issues .. and actually i really dont care right now about it..
i am not saying it is cancer .. but the history of our family . having so many that had it couldnt name all of them .. it just would not surprise me .
i am like .. so what.
i know this is not normal thinking but it is where i am at at this point ..
loosing job - now home - list is too long!!!
I am numb.