Catherine - Thanks for your reply .. I do agree that life changes and does not stay the same .. it is just in our case each stage is deeper than the one before .. and yea their really is not words to say .. life in itself is hard to juggle - balance .. to add health issues now is just not time to even make time. Cannot process anything else right now.. so i go numb.
When all the other is taken care of .. hopefully soon ... then maybe i can deal with it. . at this point its like well its just one more thing..so why worry about something that is not even in my power to handle .
Just wish all this was some kind of dream. .cuz at least i could wake up and life would be good. Life is good and worth living for the fortunate ppl
who can afford it . If my health issue is a minor thing it will be fine anyway.