hello everyone....
i havent been here much..i have been back to work..trying to manage my kids and my home...i find myself exhusted at night....my depression is here..i know it never goes away...i am just so afraid it is sneaking up on me once again....my job ends the 3 rd week of june....im so afraid of a life change like this...always wondering if my illness is gonna take over...everyday that nears closer to the end..i worry...wondering if my panic disorder will aloow me to get through this change in life...i do feel as though im slipping but is it cuz of change??everyday is a challenge to get out of bed...my work gives me the reason to do it..what happens when its gone??? the thought of being 36 years old and starting over is very frightening but with this depression and anxiety it makes it so much harder..and leaving a family ive made at work is just soooo sad.....sorry i am rambling