times for me are tough right now
Tougher then they've been in a good, long while...
I've made some posts of course, but not many people respond anymore.
It makes me mad
REALLY mad
(as in break something mad)
and it comes to me that I'm only mad because the sole reason I even bother posting my issues is because I want attention. Support, advice, etc. Though I fear the dreaded "shut the hell up." that I never get. It's not fair for anyone here. I'm disgusted by myself. If the only reason why I'm doing these things is for attention then I don't even deserve the attention that I do get. (in my world at least, where judgmental rules like this usually only apply to me) the madness needed to go somewhere so instead of taking it out of everyone here I decided to take it out of myself.