Please dont think people dont care, and that is coming from someones who's most of there family dies of drugs, suicude and booze, and believe me people cared more than they probaly ever thought. I have my husband who does not understand my substance abuse and depression, and I have a five year old aughter to care for. There was a time when I thought that getting my husband to hate me by doing something horrible, cheating on him. SO that he would leave me, I thought him and my daughter would be better off with out me. He stuck by me even after the ultimate betrale. Every day is a struggle but I have my dad and my husband and daughter, thats it, and I know a lot of people would be greatful to have one person, and I am. I am sure you have people that care. If you ever want to chat, write back I can give you an email adress. Jillian For all the people that care.. a group hug