((((((((((((((((((((((((Kaika)))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry you are in so much pain right now. Sometimes many of the people in the forum hurt at the same time and have a hard time supporting others. Please try and understand it is not you. I am sorry that you turned anger on yourself. I know it is a difficult emotion but can you work through it with someone? I hope you are feeling better now.

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