I havnt been around much either.... triggery - but I saw your post and wanted to say this....

its hard - somtimes things trigger you so bad that you fall down - but you can get back up - you can - you can do this - you did it before - you cando it again - second by second - minute by minute - hour by hour - I am doing the same thing too -

remember the reasons why you stopped - remember why you stopped - remember that there are better ways to cope - less harmful ones - remember we are here to help you - post rather than cut - I know that is soooo hard to do - your feelings are valid - you deserve to be cared for not hurt - please take care of you ok