I can relate to you here. I used to use school as a means to ignore people and other stressors/triggers so I always did pretty well (as long as I could manipulate whatever school saystem I was in to fit my cycles: Which Usually I was pretty good at). But this last semester I had classes unlike my usual. Instead of labs or research I had a full load of communication (interpersonal and speech) and psychology. All of which demanded a deeper exploration of myself and required me to reveal a great deal of myself which I usually keep hidden. All of this, added to about a dozen or more SERIOUS stressors/triggers, had left me in a horribly mixed state over the last semester, and this is where I seriously got into trouble with controlling my behavior and irreparably damaging my life. I don't know how often I said that if I hadn't invested the work I was able to before this episode I don't know where I would be. I had managed to maintain a pretty decent GPA (till now), and I was always a very reliable employee and friend (till now), so a lot of people in my life understand that a lot of my actions are from bp (my shadow self as I sometimes call it). and they are more understanding and willing to accomidate me. You should look into what adjustments you can possibly make to fit around your cycling. BP could possibly be seen as a disability of sorts, requiring special accomidation and attention in order for you to learn as other students do. If you look into what might be available at your school I bet you can find something, also, talking to your teachers, being up front with them can do worlds of good. I was a person never to ask for help. If I felt myself falling into what you are describing and if I thought there was a chance that I wouldn't be able to comeplete a class (or complete it with an A) I would just drop it (then usually change my major and entire life to follw about six times)...but I finally came to see that I was getting too old to keep doing this, I needed to ask for help when I can and take it whereever I can get it, I'd advise you to do the same (cause it has defo helped me). I wish there were more I could do to help. Let me know if there's anything I can do. Much sym pathy ...
-Valerie