I guess what I meant was, when considering entering one. If you are in one and develop mental problems, then you should be, would be guilt free. But its the idea of feeling as though I am waving a quick disclaimer in soemones face who is pursueing me. "I dont do public well, I have social problems I have...." etc. . . I have never once had anyone say "Oh, well I can't handle that.... thanks for being honest" and then move on. Its always the very warm and understainding arms wide opne reception. I cant help but think "here we go, just wait untill 6 months down the road when your office has thier X-mas party and you have to go alone" lol. I guess I just feel like its never taken serious enough no matter how its explained. I dont know, I have gave up for the past few years, I guess its the whole "keep others safe un-hurt" thing.

Also, I dont want to say "need", I have done well and got used to being alone, I do ok most of the time, but when I say "desire" I mean it in the proper term. I just cant help but desire companioship at times, and wondered if anyone else felt selfish for that and if they have found ways to be safer and more explanitory in the early stages pre-relationship.

Thank you for that reminder, I suppose when you are overwhelmed by one focus that you forget things like that. There where times when I did all I could do to make things right, and still, there would be problems. lol, you got me thinking for eg: time when I did the dishes and I accidentally used both tea towels to dry them and she was angry about it, (you know, 2 towels on 2 hooks) she started a fight. I just looked at her and broke out in laughter, I was almost in tears laughing so hard. All I could say was "if that's the best you got, I know I am doing pretty good" She smirked and I think got the point. So I do suppose when looking from certain angles you have to realize what is a problem, and what is just a perosn who desires the odd confrontation regaurdless of how rediculous the ammo is

Thanks for listening.