I am glad it turned out better then you expected. I too always tend to think the worst. I am highly dramatic (it is always the worst thing in the world or the best): guess that comes with the bp. People are always telling me that's how I run: hot or cold, rarely in between.I think that if I hadn't entered into this, the most exreme cycle I have ever been in- except when I was a child- I would still be a person who never asks for help, so I feel you there. That is ok, you can always get help/support here, and no one need know.. but it is still good to know or remember that we don't really get anywhere on our own. I was one of those who always gave help but never took or asked for it. Sometimes your cup just runs empty though and you need to have a full vessel in order to share anything with the world. Is your school amost over, for the summer, so you will get some releif from the stresses of school? It never ceases to amaze me how I can relate to people on this forum. It is so nice to have people who are sharing their experiences and they might as well be reading a day out of your own life. That alone is such a help...