Thank you.

Sannah, I know I worked hard for this and that's why I felt so pleased on the day I found out and still do now. I know that I got this myself, didn't need anyone else to find the flat for me or anything like that. I also know that I put a lot of effort into doing everything that I could here, so that I would get offered a place and so that they knew me better as that kind, caring person who wants to help people. It'll get me somewhere.

I've had one person trying to guilt trip me all weekend. The first thing she said when I burst into her room and said "I'm moving out! Woohoo! I'll need all my stuff back from you..." was; "I'm gonna have f--k all stuff to cook with now". Talk about selfish! If she could cook with what she had before I let her borrow my stuff, she can survive now. Then she had the cheek to say "I'll be around yours all the time so you can cook for me" ??!!??!?!?!?!?!?? Huh. Lemmee think on that......... NO! So I said to her "Actually Connor's gona be over every weekend, so no you won't be coming over then" "Oh, well.. I'll just come over during the weekdays and get p-ssed up with you."
Double NO! And she thinks she's coming to my housewarming party. Nuh-uh. It's not going to be a party for everyone to get drunk. I've had it planned out in my head for ages. It'll actually be a meal and a quiet drink, just chilling out and welcoming me into my new home. Not what she thinks it'll be!

I had a bad night on Saturday night, I was very close to giving up, don't ask me why because I have no idea... I just felt extremely low and like the world was comletely resting all its weight on my shoulders. I think it was because so many people were crying out to me for help and I felt like I had no space, or time for me. In a way, I guess I felt trapped. Trapped in a very small world of my own, with other peoples' problems in it and nothing else, no happiness, no elimination of teh problems. Just problems.

Jeez, this weekend has been a hard one. And to top it all off, I saw Abi this morning and she smiled and said "you ready?" "Yup."
"Only problem is, Andrew (guy that has the key for my new flat!!!) has broken his arm and is off sick... So yoiu'll need to stay here again tonight."

DAMMIT! That was the last thing I wanted!
I asked how he did it and Abi said he was out cycling on his Mountain bike and fell off. So I made light of the situation and laughed, saying "At least he broke his arm in a decent way!!!"

Sigh. So have to move all my stuff today, using the master key and then move in properly tomorrow. That was the last thing I wanted considering that one person tryingto guilt trip me. Another day of her ignoring me and shouting and screaming on the landing to get through. Brilliant. Jeeeeez, why did it have to happen?? I was SO looking forward to getting away from that!

oh well. Least I'm still moving in tomorrow.