it'd all be so much easier if i didn't have pets.. it'd be better for them, too... they'd have better homes, better lives...

and i wouldn't have to get out of bed when it's --- just --- too --- hard ...i could keep watching movies, seeing dreams, numbing myself from the real world...

sis said to the T, that she isn't afraid i'd hurt myself anymore. i must be acting again, she must be forgetting... i'm not saying anything. just that nothing has changed, though that is what she seems to think..