Hi.. This may well be one of the most difficult experiences you will ever go through! But I can tell you from personal experience (I was about the same age and had two small children too) that it will be one of single most self esteem boosting chances in your life!

You have decided to put your kids first and that is so very important - that will carry you through! Get what ever help you need from family, friends and get the hell out! One physical expession of abuse is one too many!

Good for you and God bless you for putting the children first. You will find, in time, there will be time for you to heal -- but if you don't do something you will always be and victim! AND so will your kids..

Best
Deirdre