I think it's setting in. No no no no no! I feel so heavy and sad and there's no reason for it at all. I think I'm going to cry.

I was doing so well. And now I'm trying to fight it, I'm trying to distract myself, but I can't and I feel so alone and why does it have to hit NOW, when I'm finally finished my exams, when I'm finally starting to pack to go home, when I'm finally done with all of this year's **** and I'm on my way to a BREAK.

I hate this.

no no no no no ...