I don't know how many movies have been made about DID... I assume not many. To make a movie like this one I guess they have to compress the time frames a lot to make it fit into the length of a movie. By doing that it all gets even more intense... everything will have so to speak "sharp edges" not true to the reality when it comes to the time factor. I see what you're saying in the way that people might think this is an - every day - on going - dramatic series of events of switching. Of course they also add some extra spice to it all to make people go see the movie and bring in their beloved money.
Sometimes I've seen and heard my friends switch very fast... several times in a row... during a pretty long time. It has manifested in different voices... different facial expressions, different body language, eyes looking different and so on... Then there are days when my friend doesn't switch at all as we are talking... and also when we don't talk that day. It varies over time. I guess it has to do with a lot of factors: sleep pattern, food intake, triggers, being physically ill, worries about family members etc.
The part about physical touching...
I've held alters in my arms... alters who are so afraid of hugs... I listen to them... they listen to me... Something that makes me feel so good inside is to see how they've actually learned to trust me. I've been in tears myself and been comforted and held by an alter who finds it very hard to trust and to feel physical contact.
I feel proud to know my 2 friends! They warm my heart and I want to do the same to them. I love them both as well as all their alters. When they hurt bad... I feel some of that hurt too. I can never feel all of their hurt... but I can feel for them and to some level... with them.
Like you said Orange_Blossom...
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One of the reasons it's so hard to dx DID is because most people's systems are working overtime trying to keep it all hidden. Another reason is because a "switch" might only show up in a slight facial expression change.
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That's me right now at this point. I find it very difficult to really accept it all when it comes to myself. I question everything about myself and although my friends can tell I'm more than "one"... I tend to deny it. I've seen the proofs... I'm coherent pretty often... I'm actually... to be honest... scared of getting to know my alter more and to let her out. Just like with my Asperger's... it's mostly hidden inside. I could write so much about this when it comes to myself... but I find it hard to do so.
My psychologist doesn't know much about DID at all... In Sweden it's something only existing under the surface... it's never really talked about. My psychologist only says I've got like two "systems" working inside of me.
Last week I met a psychiatrist who came to Sweden to work only for a couple of days... She's from Denmark. At the end of the app I told her about how I dissociate. She asked a lot of questions and she said I described it well... about switching and having an alter/alters. For the first time - a doctor told me - that I do have an alter. It is really hard to digest... knowing I can't get much help in this country. This psychiatrist gave me this URL:
http://www.peakstates.com She's just about to start working for:
Institute for the Study of Peak States -"Methods for Fundamental Change in the Human Psyche". I haven't read much of it so far... but she left me her number if I wanted to talk to her about it.
Well... thank you for reading! Reading the stories of your lives and your encouraging words to each other, is a deep source of knowledge and also a comfort when the sky gets dark and cloudy.
Thank you all for your openness!
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