I have not cut myself in over 5 years. And before that it had been about 6 or 7 years. I had a rough spot 5 or so years ago and relapsed with cutting as well as other SI behaviors. Since then I have only done mild things, plucking leg hairs one at a time or bruising just a bit by hitting or punching myself. Recently I have been having a problem with memories and feeling like that again, and it was my birthday on top of everything, and so I waxed my legs(acceptable form or SI), which did help a bit. The thing I realized is that about 2.5 years ago, I started taking my frustrtions out on my kids instead of hurting myself because my daughter was starting to hit herself like me, so I stopped hurting myself but found myself yelling all the time since then. So now with this new urge to SI again, I am thinking if I go ahead and do it, it might help with the yelling too. But I don't want to get caught in a pattern that I can't break either. So I need some help and advice with this. I guess I am looking for alternatives to SI that might give the same result of releasing the overwhelming feelings as well decrease the anger and yelling at my kids. I also have numerous scars that are still very visable even 20 years after the fact, many required stitches and some should have been but weren't, and so I don't want that sort of thing to spiral out of control again either because my body has enough scars on it already. Well, thanks for any help anyone can provide.