thanks for this, Tara, your experiences sound the most similar to mine.

beings, entities, mischevious spirits?? beating, hitting, kicking, punching me and a host of other things (as someone else put it). I tried abilify but found this just made things worse. I AM schizophrenic!

I am now on amisulpride which works really well for me. It has though, increased my appetite and I put on a stone since taking this med but have now started to lose a few pounds, hopefully will-power will put paid to the weight gain.

The tactile hallucinations, where it really feels like something external is 'physically' abusing me, feel so real, I've found it so hard to believe that this is all a product of just an over-active imagination and that it's 'all in my mind' and that there's nothing really there.

I remain very open-minded to any alternative theories other than what the psychiatry books say.

Anyone have any alternative theories?

One of the posters on here said they don't tell anyone of what they believe to be real because they won't be believed. I am really open-minded about this stuff so please don't feel afraid to post about your beliefs here.

I relate to what another poster was saying about beings being present to fight against anything good and when I've been ill in the past I have explored the notions of evil against good, how we deal with this as a society and the bible. It seems the bible is the best known and most popular literature on good and evil but I find it hard to comprehend the existence of a god or of a devil. However there is definitely a struggle that has gone on since humans existed between good and evil and I have pondered and pondered on these concepts and tried to understand what it is that evil gets out of being evil. Is it evil that is ill in some way, is evil an illness and us good people merely exhibiting the normal signs and reactions of anyone whose at the hands of torturers and tormenters?

I mean is it evil that is truly sick and that has an illness of the mind rather than us? Perhaps, therefore, evil torments us to make itself feel better by being able to say "Hey YOU'RE the one thats sick, YOU'RE the one thats mad". It's evil's coping mechanism to be able to make everyone else feel lesser so it may see itself as superior, otherwise they feel the lesser entity, they feel insecure and inadequate. We are normal when not on the receiving end of their terrible ways.