(((((Sally)))) The first year of grief is like a fog. I know it doesn't seem like it but it truly will ease. Tell him the things you want to. I believe he can still hear you. He was way too young to go and had way to much to live for.

As for work the should be able to help you a bit by moving you around, that shoudn't be a big deal. But don't be worried about breaking down in tears. So you gotta tak a few minuted to get ahold of yourself. They will deal. Explain to the manager what a difficut time this is and why. Tell her you may need some extra heelp for a few days. And make them stick with it, ~hugs~ I'm sorry about you dads passing