I just need to let these awful emotions out. My dog (13 yrs old) started having a hard time breathing last night. Amazing, but he still kept his sweet temperment even though he was super stressed and nearing death (I didn't know that yet).

We rushed him to the animal hospital and the xrays showed a huge tumor in his chest that had finally pushed part of his trachea against his spine closing it off! The doc said that he wouldn't make it through the night--surgery was impossible.

I had to sign the paperwork to put him down so he wouldn't die in pain and fear. I feel awful--I signed his life away. I know it was to help him, but I still feel that I sent him away.
We loved each other very much and he always watched that no one strange came near our house when my husband wasn't home. He wouldn't leave my side if I was sick or sad.

My husband and I never taught him any of these things--he was just a loveable, devoted friend.

Sorry for a sad story but I need to get this pain out of my system.

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