Hi im new to this site and have joined because i just feel so sad sometimes. I have always had low self esteem (since i can remember) which seems to go up and down depending on whats gong on in my life. I think it steams from a broken home feeling abanded and unloved from my father and watching my mothers sadness and alcoholism (long story anyway) Its all a bit sad really. I have had problems in relationships but iam lucky to have found a great man now, who loves me and treats me very well and we have a little girl who is gorgeous!!! The problem is i feel like a failure as a parent. Im a stay at home mum so i have lost contact and pritty much have no friends and my family are quit far away. I dont get many visitors or phone calls and it just seems no one likes me. I try to contact people and am nice to people but they dont seem to respond. I quess you would say im lonely most the time. I feel like my family deserve better than me because of my mood swings. I feel like a failure because i left uni and could have done really well in a career and had more money to put towards the family home. I worry about what people think to much and think people see me as a bad mum. Im always looking to my partner for reassurance and he tells me im doing a gr8 job and i love my daughter and try to give her everything i can.