I had my first manic episode in Nov. of last year that I had in 12 years. I went to a psycho therapist and tried several meds. I was on lamictal, seroquel, wellbutrin, ambilify, and others.
In jan. of this year I went into a major depression. I just didn't want to live anymore. I could not get out of bed. My mom came across the country to help care for my 3 kids. I couldn't even make a lunch, grocery shop, or cook. I felt no feelings at all when I looked at my children, it was like they weren't even mine. It was so awful I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Now I am manic again. I was taking prozac prescribed by my primary doctor. I quit going to the therapist cuz she wanted me to go the the hospital. I have been there and knew it would do no good. I would come home to the same stressors and life.
My husband has mentioned leaving and he can't live like this. He thinks I am on speed and out of my tree.
How do I keep my marriage together. To add to the problems, he has been laid off since march and I stay at home. This economy is so bad especially for us that have a mental illness.
Any words of wisdom or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks and have a good day.
Helene