My heart goes out to you, and I can identify with being abused at a fragile age..you are right on target when you say your dreams are a way of your brain working through it, they may be overwhelming yet the dream state if the asfest state to feel these things once more. You are new here, and the more you dial up this website and share you will realize how loved you are. For me, when I remember things from my past, I allow myself to feel, then gently coax myself back to the present, for you, that means wow I have a loving husband as family here ib the present, how blessed you are..he may not remember bad things from his past but I am sure he relates on some level, he sounds understanding. Why not post a poem in creative corner to work through it? Also tell yout therapist. Feel free to post here as a reply to this post too. I'm thinking of you.............................