sorry i need advice again

At my T yesterday i told him how i've been struggling with time, feeling in a parallel time, i just let it all out, i dont really remember what happened, but it only felt like a couple of minutes had passed & i could see he was holding his pen up asking me to tell him what day it was, i knew what day it was but didnt realise it was 45 minutes later, he told me there was no way he would do EMDR with me, this is my 10th session & its what we have been working towards doing, this is what i came into T for, people have told me this is what i need, i had one go at it about session 4, but he said i wasnt ready, now he's saying there is no way on earth its happening, just said it could no longer be an option, i got upset, & left rather quickly.

I later started to panic, sent him an email saying i was confused, wasnt sure if i should go back, felt like i wanted to run to the hill's, but also had this panic come over me that i wouldnt be seeing him ever again, crazy feelings, then had this horrible feeling that i would be lost without him , dont want to feel that, he replied back saying that he has to be upfront with my treatment, but it will be more long term & we have to find a different type of treatment i know i know nothing, but what else is there?, feel like the rug's been pulled under me, its taken me so long to get to this stage, now everythings changing, he also mentioned "a dependency issue between us", oh my god, he can read my mind

does anyone have any idea why he would completey change his mind?, im worried what would work then?, if anything?, im really not good at talking, so i thought this procedure would eventually be ideal...