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Originally Posted by Manda86
Why am I so co-conscious with Little Manda? Is it a good thing or a bad thing that I can be "big Manda" on the outside and "little Manda" on the inside?It might be because I live with my husband's family, but I am very good at keeping little Manda hidden. I can act all "big" on the outside and no one has any idea that little Manda is out on the inside. Does that make sense? We feel like we are constantly hiding, but I am not sure if I am hiding or she hiding.  Why is this so hard? We don't like it!!! I wish I could either be big Manda or Little Manda... not both at the same time.  |
Sorry I havent been responding to your posts my keyboard died. all I could do was read. I have a new keyboard now.
Manda Ive been there. its a really good thing that you have so much control now. I didnt achieve this kind of control for years and years in therapy and my treatment team in a hospital had to teach me how to have this much control so that my alters remained inside coconscious with me and didnt pop out misbehaving anymore.
if it goes with you like it did me I bet it wont be long now before you and little manda become one together working like teamwork instand of just being big manda on the outside and little manda on the inside cause it wasnt very long at all after I got this much control that me and my alters became one instead of them inside and me outside. maybe a few months if that.
