i often think i'd love to have a personal assistant follow me around and write down all my various observations then organize them for me so i can look at it all and be able to say one day "oh, yeah, that's it...that's what my life has been"...someone who can step back and put the puzzle together for me.

All seriousness, i'm sorry for the blahs and hope you feel sunnier soon. It's been sunny here and it helps me. If the weather isn't available, do something self nurturing please.