In a reply to this. I did not want to go into the situation because its on an old post. i was pushed into marriage and guilted by him. he is from another country and hated where he was, told me he would kill himself if i did not marry him because he did not want to go home. he knew i did not want it, he has taken all privacy away from me and treats me like i am his dog who must obey him. He puts me down and screams in my ears when i am trying to sleep, shoving his knee against my back calling me all the names i was called when i was bullied in high school because he knows it hurts me. He went through all my old pictures, emails, conversations and things in general thrownig away or deleteing what bothered him but keeping all my old memories that were none of his buisness glued in his head and uses them against me. Secrets i had with friends he uses as blackmail to get what he wants. i have ended up bruised and hurt. a month ago i tried to kill myself because i was so depressed and felt trapped in the relationship, i cut my arms horribly and drank until i passed out my twins boyfriend ran in and found me and started freaking out. Everytime i try to stick up for myself he turns it around to make me doubt myself and feel guilty even if it was him who made the mistake. He cheated on me last year and turned it around to say that it was all my fault for not being around enough, he said i should be punished and i was not allowed to hang out with my friends for months. i lost many friends because he made me tell them they were not good enough and all i needed was him. I have to delete all my browsing history because he needs to account for every minute of what i do when he is not around. i tell him i am constantly sleeping. whenever he is at work he comes home and says okay tell me what you did, all of it, dont lie to me or leave anything out, i have to keep a log of what i do every hour or he does not believe me. You really do not think he deserves me to fall out of love with him?