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Has he called you yet??? I hope you are better today, as much as possible.

Destroying something other than yourself can help sometimes, especially if it requires hard work to do it. I feel bad about it now, but one thing I did in the past was dug up a couple of shrubs from the garden (I didn't particularly like them and wanted to plant something else there) and chopped them up into little pieces. But thinking back about how I violently killed something like that, because of my own anger, bothers me. I don't like that side of me and would rather turn those feelings against myself. Sometimes it is possible to channel it into something productive, like weeding, but it still isn't quite as good. Maybe you can find something you could destroy and not feel bad about?

I'm supposed to go for walks too, but I'm not likely to think of that as an alternative if I want to cut. Making it a habit generally improves my moods. I think that walking would be a good thing for you.

Sorry your husband is such a jerk.

Please take care of yourself. I worry about you.
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Wendy

<font color=red>"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." -Harriet Braiker</font color=red>