dear pooh,

sorry about the floods of painful memory. it bites when it gets like this.

i do not have very many good memories and i have tons of bad memories, but 2 days ago i got some feelings inside of being little and loving how the air smelled and the colors looked. it's not even something i can explain well to myself, much less to you and folks here at pc.com. however, it tells me that eventually i will begin to get back the good that i lost with the bad i supressed.

i've had to wait a long time and i kinda think the good might have returned sooner if i had been able to let the bad come up and out and be helped. i fought so hard to not remember the bad that i lost all the good in there too. i did the best i could in dangerous, horrible times and now i am recovering the best i can in a lonely time and i will recover!!! so will you!!!

believing the best for you until you can believe it for yourself,

leslie and her pixies