I cant read my own handwriting either. Sometimes i write down the way im feeling and what is wrong when i have a strong urge to harm myself and i go back later to try and read it and because ive written it that fast i cant understand it, also the writing also looks so angry its very weird. Im annoyed i had something really good to say before and i still cant remember it!

when you say i should write down the connections i have myself with adhd do you mean the symptoms i see in myself?. I also know the feeling of having to re read things i have to do it all the time because things just dont sink in, ive already read your last post 6 times. Also when im reading really long posts sometimes ill find myself almost at the end of it and not even remember what the hell its about. I will read it but its just like its all different words that dnt make semnse because ive started thinking about completely different things whle im reading