Thank you everyone! Sending many blessgings and hugs to ya'll

I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to reply, my laptop charger decided to give out, so I haven't had a lot of accesss to the internet.

I ended up having to reschudele because lo and behold I got my peroid, I reschulde it for June 1st. I'm feeling a bit calmer about it, I've decided to either go with a friend or by myself, I'm not sure yet, but *sighs* I'll figure something out.

I'm not sure about telling the doctor about the abuse, because I live in a small town and the doctor is also the family physican, I'm 19 so all my information is confedintal, but I don't trust small town physicans to really hold that code of honor, and if any of it ever got out I would be devistated and torn apart, since I haven't really made a decision if I am ever going to tell my parents or not.

Thank you all so much for the advice, it's really calmed me down a lot to know this isn't some scarey thing and that it's just like a routine check up.

Blessings to all
Sparrow