Thank you for your replies.

I've had a fun but exhausting day at the Bath and West Show today. Connor phoned me and told me he needed to talk to me, just after I got there. Great way to start my day, thanks Connor. Not happy! Then he kept phoning me asking me to go on skype so he could talk to me about it... Hello!!! I'm trying to watch the show jumping here!!! GRRRRR.

I felt like the outcast of the group tbh, the only reason Mandy and Nick kept an eye on me was because I get travel sick - never used to, but have started to recently... So yeah. Just kept myself to myself really and took lots of pictures. I've just had a horrid migraine all day, despite drinking nearly 2 litres of water and attempting to eat something. Exhausted!

Just feel like nobody wants me around. Maybe they don't. Maybe they are better off if this ED kills me. I don't care. I'd rather die than be this fat anyway.

I'm sorry. I'm feeling so crap atm and I just. I don't know what to do