You are SO not alone! i haven't felt like who i was in years. i see pictures of myself as a child and i can't feel who i was. i can't even connect to who i was even 20 years ago (i'm 45). i forget the things i've done, accomplished in life, am capable of doing. i forget i'm more than someone who sits at the computer most of the day. i've forgotten myself. This is because i had to forget what was happening to me as a child in order to face the day and live. i got so good at it, i didn't know when to stop forgetting. That happens to a lot of us.

Elysium, as usual, is very wise in what she's saying to you. All this is normal as you finally start letting your inner thoughts, your true self be heard. We get so good at stuffing down the bad stuff we lose parts of ourselves with it. As we loosen things up and allow them out, we get jumbled as the pieces try to right themselves. Your T will not be surprised to be discovering these things about you and is wise to take a step back as he/she evaluates things. If you sense your T can't handle it, talk to him or her about these feelings. In the occasional event that's true, know you deserve better and find it.

You deserve to heal. You are NOT crazy. You survived the insane.