MeSo,
I have felt the same many times. Elysium put it perfectly!

Our impressions are old and dirty lies we have told ourselves throughout life. Strong emotions often aren't logical or valid ~ they are simply how we feel. And it is tough to change lifelong habits of putting ourselves down. You aren't a thread killer.
I think that your post is very good, as you spoke up about fears that many of us share from time to time. Speaking about that fear occasionally can remind us not to assume the worst about ourselves. Thank you!

Shez