((((((((((((Vanessa)))))))))))))))

No need to apologize. I like your username - I hope to also one day "learn to love me".

It's natural to withhold information about bad things that have happened to us, as it is also natural and normal to lie about some things as well. It takes a LOT to get used to things that have happened to us in the past, and we're all prone to some form of withholding information or misleading information about abuse stuff. You're okay. Breathe. I know it's scary having to deal with abuse history stuff, and it's especially hard to deal with the "truth" about stuff.

But it was, and is, never ever ever going to be your fault. No matter what you say.