Alcohol seems to be my saviour/downfall , after the first couple all my senses seem to balance out and my mind tends to focus, the speed demon in my head takes a break and lets me take control for a while, but then for the downfall,1 drink leads to 2, and so on and so forth and the addictive side of me cackles into life and the soothing controlled part is gone, ok next i seem to become melancholy and depressed ,the natural side effect of alcohol,i don't know about anyone else here but i never seem to have the control to stop at the 2 drink stage even though i feel most at ease .
Many of you out there reading this are already flagging me as an alcoholic but i rarely drink ,perhaps once a month, but the outcomes are the same.