so id like to say frist that this web sit needs to be fix'd.... try to register and just get to post was long and frustrating...

I dont want to die, i just want the world to stop.
i see things everyday that make me sad inside, makes me mad inside...
i have ergeszz and needs wants.... but i can not take can not give and not allow my self to try....

i fear everything i want and give my self only what i have... i smoke even though i feel sharp pain and can bairly breath... i do drugs even though all i realy want is a happy simple normal life.... i cant say what i want to say because i have no confedence in my self in the eyes of others...

i feel like a ghost... thats just waching a world he dosnt understand... tormented by everything that needs to be done... and everything i can not do... sad and lonely in a room full of friends... ppl i know that care for me....

but nothing moves me... takes this waight off my soul... off my heart my mined.... every part of my being weeps.... i cry for my self and for all man kined... why must we be sad... why must we be unhappy... why must we love....

and then agen.... to only lie to our sevfs.... saying u can live with out that person, or to pretend its ok ppl pass away... or move on...

many ask what the purpouse of life is, its to live.
unfortunatly... that leave teh door wide open for a wolrd of hurt...

life is simple and complicated, long and borring.... sad and beautiful....

and i dont think ill ever be happy, because i know too much about knowing too little.