I have been fighting major depression lately. Went today to see my meds dr and she adjusted my regular meds and she has me taking another antidepressant at night time too to help with sleep. She wants me to try to sleep and eat more then I have been but that is so hard to do...but she says the meds will help with sleeping.....so far I am up and it is 1 am and nothing UGH....
feel so lonely too and just cannot shake the feeling of gloom and doom and feeling of being incased in darkness....have been SIing alot lately too and thinking suicide and even gone as far as planning things out. But I made a promise to my T to call him when I felt like doing anything...it is a verbal agreement so my meds dr said today that she would feel better if I had a written contract that I could look at amd remind myself of my commitment. So might say something to him tomorrow about it.
I just HATE myself so much and HATE life.....wish I was not here right now.....UGH.....thanks for listening to me rambling on and feeling sorry for myself...