((((((((((muffy)))))))))),
When I read the title of your thread, the first thing that came to my mind was "burn it"......then I read sabby's post......oh my.....there is another mind that thinks like mine.
Kidding aside, it is important to get out the points in life that are bothering us.....like you were able to do. Many people aren't able to express what is going on inside & then the brush pile gets even bigger before it can be set free. The issues lie inside because it's not always easy to express them, the freedm it brings to us & others who relate to the thought or feeling.
It is important to acknowledge those feelings as valuable part of life & as normal responses to what it is that is touching your life.
We share your feelings of pain especially with the loss fo the boy to loosing the desire to live....that pain comes as a shock & i nothing that should be just "gotten over".
These things that come into our lives are thing we learn from & grow through.
I hope you will come to a period in your life when you will be able to feel peace again......those times give us the strength to go through times like these.

Debbie