hi, good to meet you.

i too am not that fond of myself. I've done some pretty horrible things in my life.

i've also quit numerous meds doctors have put me on because i thought they werent doing anything. luckily i did this on and off thing in prison so i had a cushion when i stopped from letting me do anything bad to myself. I eventually found the right combination, but only after i started to take steps in my life to improve my situation.

instead of sitting in my bunk all day i went out and started playing cards with the other guys, lifting weights, and getting a inmate library job. It's kinda of hard for meds to work when your fully concentrated on how bad the world is. sometimes you need a slight distraction for the chemicals to take hold.

kind of like watching water boil. nothing is going happen intill you look away.