I quit my meds a week ago. I had been feeling okay until a few days ago. I feel so spacy and really sullen. I cut last night for the first time in a while. I went to church on wed. Im new there. The pastor came up to me and gave me a hug. It made me feel so disgusting. I keep thinking about it. I don't think he meant anything but i felt so gross. It was one of those long hugs. Maybe he just saw that i was sad, but it felt so uncomfortable. I never hug men...especially a pastor. ugh. i feel so gross.