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kaika,
i'm sorry your mom let you down so badly, it stinks. there is no defense for their drug use of illegal substances. the only thing i do want to remind you is that if they are addicted the drugs rule their mind, will and emotions. they are in need of help and are in the grip of the drugs - which means they are not in their right minds.
if i were their kid, i would feel anxious, insecure, angry, hurt, frustrated and who knows what else. their is NOTHING wrong with what you wrote and how you feel. to be told "you need to just get over it..." is crap. if you were told your mom had a fatal disease and someone told you to just get over it it would be about like this.
you did the right thing for your mom and for yourself. her life affects yours and you are worried for her and him and rightly so. 17 may look grown up on the outside, but it is not very old and it is scary when the people "in charge" are not being smart/responsible.
in april 2003, my daughter and husband had to confront me about my addiction to pain pills. i did get some help and got clean and sober for the last 6 years, though i am having trouble with meds right now (i have severe pain problems and have to juggle my need for pain relief and try to stay sober and right now i am not doing well). my emotional pain is so great right now that i really want to blank out. the only good thing i can say is i am trying to be honest and i am not lying about what is going on with me.
i'm not sure this post is helpful to you, but i did want to say i feel for you because this is a VERY tough situation. i hope you can find a way to manage until you can go to college or get a job and move out. you deserve better than this, but life is never perfect and sometimes it just stinks. hang on there, ok?
leslie
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