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monty_girl,
i can see how it would be scary for you if rachel tells things to T. how did T act when rachel told? did anything bad happen to you after she told? most of us who write here were programmed not to tell and punished cruelly if we told anything to anyone. we were actually programmed to su*****out before we told anyone what was happening to us.
the abusers programming children this way to protect themselves from being caught and punished for the evil abuse they commit. there's a saying that says we are as sick as our secrets. keeping the secrets of the bad things they did to us and the secrets of how it made us feel is a terrible burden. it makes our pain worse over time and it wears us down until it is hard to live. (i know this from experience, i'm not just blowing smoke. they made us believe we did hideous things, terrible and evil things. it was very difficult to ever tell, but when we finally did tell our T we discovered the only crimes were the ones they committed against us. they were evil and guilty, not us. i would tell you the whole thing but it is very triggery and i don't want to hurt anyone. i just know that after i told i was able to heal and i lost the shame and fear they bound me up with. i reclaimed the truth about myself which is that i was a child and they forced me into horrible things and they were monsters, not me!)
rachel is trying to help herself and you too. she's not just trying to blurt out things. she just can't keep on the way it has been for so long. you all deserve to find some peace and healing and we hope you will find it soon. hugs from us if you want them,
leslie and her pixies
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