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Originally Posted by phoenix7
have been staying away - triggery - cancelleed new T saw an old T i saw a long time ago instead - he said he would see me and I am sooooo happy - he is a great T - and he doesnt want me to hurt myself anymore cos he wants me to have a better life and get better and he wants ot help me do that  and I trust him and he makes me feel safe  he asked me to promise not to hurt myself anymore and I did - but I am so afraid.... and I want to SI to ground myself but I promised i promised i promised ....
I am so afraid................... afraid afraid afraid afraid afraid............... |
P7,
I am happy that you decided to see someone that is familiar to you, but is it realistic to promise something like that to him? I don't mean to sound unrealistic but that is a lot given what has been going on and I would hate to see you, set yourself up for failure. Could the promise be different or not at all but rather that you will try to not SI? I'm not saying you will, but if you do SI, then you might feel like you did something wrong and feel shame when talking to your therapist.
Dunno - maybe I am wrong. With my T, no promises but she is also not asking.
The resources to have other things takes time. You are in the process of getting those.
Be well