Ty everyone who wrote me and posted. Thanks for the love and care you have shown. I came close to going to the hospital because of so much panic and confusion. But I have a really great T who has really helped me get through this without having to be in a hospital.
It has felt like a death to me. Just a loss. The most confusing part was that I didn't even know her. If that makes any sense. But I still feel as a part of me has died. But I have such a supportive T that has really been there for me and comforted me. I've been going through such a hard time of late that we are thinking about medication now. I haven't been on any meds for over 5 years now. But I really think at this point I could use the help of medication to help with the anxiety and depression. T wants me to go for blood work to just check on my health right now. Been so sick of late he jus wants to make sure it's just depression right now. I'm due for blood work anyways the first of June, so I'm just going to ask them for a complete work up. So we will see what happens then.